Well. It's been a little bit since I wrote. I wish I could say "oops", but there's not even been time to think about it lately. There's been just SO much going on lately. I haven't had much time for people, activities, TV, writing, reading, cleaning, shopping, cooking... It's just been CRAZY lately. Between going back to work, all that's going on with Frank's job and stuff, church things... I am always tired lately. I feel stressed and drained, physically and emotionally. I think that's partially why I've seemed to be getting sick like, ALL the time lately. I've got to get back to working out, eating better, and taking my vitamins (I got out of the habit of doing that when I had my surgery, and have just not yet gotten back into the habit of taking them again). I need to find an organized way to get and keep my house clean with only a short amount of time to work at it. I need to start getting things ready to sell at a garage sale, because we really want to downsize and move in with my folks. There's just so much to do and so little time to do it.
Because of how busy we've are and have been, my brain has SO much on it all the time that I'm finding it REALLY hard to wind down and relax, which means sleep has been almost non-existent for me as of late. I slept for almost 7 hours last night, only waking once. It was heavenly, and I actually felt like I slept.. before I haven't been able to really relax enough to wake up feeling like I slept.. it was always just this "oh, that was a short nap" feeling.
Also, this isn't part of my own particular struggle, but my heart is so heavy for one of my best friends. She's like a sister to me, and has been such an encourager and a good example of a Godly wife for me (she got married young, and so has been married for like, 5 times as long as us, lol). Right now her mom is in the final stages of her battle with cancer. Her mom has moved in with her and its been hard on her and her seven kids to watch this happen to their mom/grandma... especially since her dad lost this exact same battle two years ago. Having worked palliative care (end of life care) before, I am afraid that this battle is almost over. And I know how hard that is to accept. I want to help so much more than I am helping, and I don't know what I can do. I pray for her daily, and I try to cheer her and the kids up.. but my heart is heavy on a daily basis for them. This entire struggle has been so hard for this family. I wish I had the right words to make this burden lighter, or the right technique to make it easier to deal with... So for my praying friends, please keep my friend and her family lifted up, and pray that God will enable me to be equipped for the phone call that will come in the middle of the night, most likely.
Anyways, the dryer has buzzed, the washer has stopped, and the dishes are screaming for attention. I need to muster energy from the great beyond and get to work. Thanks for checking in! Hope you're having a great day. :)
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